Finding One’s Path

The kind lady stopped to listen.  I didn’t notice her at first, as I was lost in a melody.  It had just spun itself into my being and I let it go.  Looking up at her words, I smiled. “You will grow up to be a singer” she said.  I made a note to make it so.  I was three years old.

Fast Forward……

From the moment I entered the synagogue that morning, the first after becoming Bat Mitzvah, I wanted to share the experience with others, wanted them to feel what I felt.  At the sound of the elderly gentlemen chanting I was filled with a longing to sing, a longing to join their world of prayer.  They were lost in communion and joy.  I was twelve but I somehow understood.

Fast Forward…

I was fifteen. My Grandmother Lilly had arranged for me to sing for her ladies’ club.  Her pride in my becoming the first Bat Mitzvah at the synagogue led her to insist on sharing my talent with her friends.  I was half thrilled and more than half annoyed and resistant, but I agreed.

I began with an upbeat Israeli tune and followed it with a lovely Yiddish song.  Half way through the second piece an impassioned voice called out, “The angels are singing.”  Silence.  All was still.  I could feel the dismay.  Walking toward her I began to sing again.  The joy in her eyes changed my life.

These are three of many signposts placed before me as I grew into adulthood.  There were times when I tried to ignore them in favor of musical theatre, opera, American folk music, even jazz.  While I loved them all, they did not move me as did the music of the synagogue.

So I learned to trust the signs.  Most of them led to desired outcomes.  Others were a surprise, caused considerable pain, or sent me spiraling downward in mood and in energy.  Yet the memories of the kind lady walking by, the passion of the elderly worshipers, and the joy of a woman well into senility, continue to inspire me.  This inspiration strengthens my desire to share the joy and pathos of Jewish music and the many additional skills acquired throughout my career.

Perhaps your path is not yet clear, perhaps you misread the signposts, or long for a new direction.  Perhaps unwelcome transition is before you, and you are unsure which way to go. Perhaps it is time to try something new and you seek the perspective deep within you, ready to be accessed.  If so, let us work together toward a new beginning or the way back to your heart’s true desire.


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